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♥ Sunday, February 15, 2009

same old thing repeats itself..
its jus a vicious cycle..
i shld hav known it the last it happened..
i still remembered damn clearly the last time this happened..
its during our 1 yr anniversary..
at that time.. we broke up once..
cos of her..
we broke up on our 1 yr..
den... cos of her again..
we broke up on v day..
y cant she jus let me go??
y????
and y mus her make all my special days so not special?
i tell myself to accept the fact..
accept that this is my life..
accept that she is afterall my mum..
accept that i love ben and i hav to accept evrything that comes along wif loving ben..
but..
im jus a gal...
a 20 yr old gal...
i hav lots of stress...
final yr of poly...
wad does she wan from me?
does she wanna lose this daughter of hers?
or she wans me to hav a mental breakdown and go to IMH?

fuck... wad else can i do..

the girl. Blogged @
7:17 AM


♥ Friday, February 13, 2009

hmmm... dunno if anyone will read this.. i guess some shld noe my blog. cos i got leave my blogspot url awhile on my pm before.

anwyay. its a fuck it new yr.
evrything not going smoothly.
argh.
fuck.. hate 2009 to the core..
since its such a fucking new yr. i doubt i wil be able to celebrate my birthday as well.
FUCK IT~

the girl. Blogged @
6:13 AM